My New Love

HEEEYYY PEOPLEEE!!! So so so super sorry I haven't been able to blog lately, busy life, you know how it goes...but anyhoo!! Since Seth dumped me, I found someone way better. His names Cody X3. Hes like...totally frikkin amazing in every way!! we've been going out now for almost a month and i feel so in love. I hope we stay together a rly rly long time ^//^. Call me Shinderera! (Cinderella) He treats me like such a princess ^//^..I rly don't deserve it all..hes just so wonderful..I can't even describe all that he means to me...I want to cry from happiness...Its such a beautiful feeling..what more can I say? I haven't felt like this for real since...wow...a really long time. I've never felt more secure with a person. Hes so sweet and kind and just perfect...I wish he was here right now...unfortunately he couldn't come to school today..oh well..It rly is a boring day at school without him though. He makes my day so much better just being here...to me he makes school feel like so much more than books and paper..hes the only reason I rly enjoy coming anymore..Its been such a long time since thats mattered to me at all. Honestly I didn't know I could look forward to school...until I met him 0.0. I know when he reads this he'll probably tell me how sweet it is and hug me like..alot XP. So baby when you read this, just know I Love You!

This Is The Hidden Reality
~*Moonlightshadows12*~

I only have a few minutes...and I'm sorry readers...but Seth broke up with me. And it wasnt my fault. And the sad part is the guy who caused it all isnt talking to me but instead hes just gone on being friends with Seth. And did I mention he already has a new gf?! The thing I hate is thats shes actually really really pretty...unlike me. And im sure he loves that. So as for now Im a floater. Maybe ill have that one real special guy someday...yea...someday..I know hes out there. I'm near over Seth but I just need the assurance that this whole thing isn't just going to ruin my high school life completely. Suppose we were happy...one mistake and its all over. I don't want a guy like that. I want a guy that actually can forgive and forget. gtg readers. sorry

Waiting

Ok I have a little less than 10 minutes so i need to make this quick. Currently, my life sucks. I have no phone, computer, or even privacy in my own home. Its partially my fault but mostly my mothers paranoia. I can't stand it. And only to make it worse Seth shows no sympathy. I'm not asking him to cry for me. All i was hoping for was maybe a hug and for him to tell me it would all be alright. but no. He. Does. Nothing. T~T. Maybe hes used to having better, prettier, stronger, less fragile gfs. Unlike me. I hate myself. Theres only one reason I have left to live and thats knowing that when I turn 18 I'm GONE. Its my promise of life and love and I will NEVER give that up. And there are very few ppl who know why but June 18 2014 really means alot to me. 3 more years of this HELL. Id considered moving to my dads a few times. But id never have the nerve to start anything like that with my mom, nonetheless leave my amazing friends i have here in the state ive lived in since birth. I just wish that through it all SOMEONE might care. I understand alot of ppl have it way worse off then me,but this is the worst my lifes ever been. I guess if I want REAL happiness. I have to wait for it. Like I have been. For over 2 years.

Reassurance

Ah hello world. Just another pointless blog very few people are going to read. Today I wana apologize for what I said in the previous blog kinda bashing Seth. I feel a little stupid for jumping to so many conclusions about him. He really does care for me. Hes just not quick to show it like I'm used to. And I suppose if we had some alone time hed show it more. But you never know..maybe I just havent been with him long enough to really understand like I always think i do. This yellow is straining my eyes >.<. blehh. Oh well. Anyway, I can't help feeling like theres guna b a point where hes just guna unleash what he actually does feel for me sometime soon. I guess you never know..short blog today..

This Is The Hidden Reality
~*Moonlightshadows12*~

A Call For Help

I know no one ever reads my blogs. And nobody cares what I have to say. But the real reason I blog is just to vent whatever feelings happen to come across my mind. I feel as if Seths not telling me something..like theres something everyone else knows that I dont..almost like hes upset with me but won't admit it. He's constantly hurting and reassuring me..off and on..so..is there really something wrong? or is he just bipolar?I dont even know what to think anymore..he complains about not getting to spend any time with me..but when I'm with him he ignores me like I'm invisible...and he wont listen when I tell him anything..so ive discovered I have to have others tell him for me just so hell get the slightest hint...I'm not sure if he loves me or not..he surely doesnt show it often..I'm just not sure what to do..I can usually see right through people..and with him I thought i could..last week..but he didnt leave me like i thought..so maybe I'm just looking past whats really there..maybe hes just upset..but i cant stand this worrying every second..after reassurance I'm fine..but then he turns around and makes me wonder again..I've never been so puzzled...So if anyones out there..anyone who could help with my situation that might read this..comment or message me..please..thank you..

This Is The Hidden Reality
~*Moonlightshadows12*~

JROTC

Today, I had to wear my JROTC uniform for the first time. To be honest its rly uncomfortable =). I prefer to keep my hair down usually..so its strange for me to be wearing it in a bun. I look really snazzy. but at the same time i think if i wasn't wearing the drill team jacket id look like a super nerd. so drill team is good ^^;;. Everytime I think of ROTC i think miltary and so it makes me wana listen to superchick 0.0. I wish i had a rank. I kinda hate being a let I because for one thing I am nothing. No rank. No awards. Nothing. All thats pinned on my uniform is the schools emblem and a star. The star just means we have a unit of honor. I'm going to apply for my academic wreath to go around the star soon, but thats sooner. Also I'm hoping I'll get a skirt soon. These pants are not only unflattering but rly quite uncomfortable. Well, theres not much else for to say about it. it DOES look snazzy...even though i cant kiss Seth in it >.>. I mean berry to mint =D. Anyway, Love you all my beautiful readers. (yes i love u ugly ppl ur beautiful)

This Is The Hidden Realityy
~*Moonlightshadows12*~

Another Brain Teaser

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Harder then the last one now isn't it?