I only have a few minutes...and I'm sorry readers...but Seth broke up with me. And it wasnt my fault. And the sad part is the guy who caused it all isnt talking to me but instead hes just gone on being friends with Seth. And did I mention he already has a new gf?! The thing I hate is thats shes actually really really pretty...unlike me. And im sure he loves that. So as for now Im a floater. Maybe ill have that one real special guy someday...yea...someday..I know hes out there. I'm near over Seth but I just need the assurance that this whole thing isn't just going to ruin my high school life completely. Suppose we were happy...one mistake and its all over. I don't want a guy like that. I want a guy that actually can forgive and forget. gtg readers. sorry

Waiting

Ok I have a little less than 10 minutes so i need to make this quick. Currently, my life sucks. I have no phone, computer, or even privacy in my own home. Its partially my fault but mostly my mothers paranoia. I can't stand it. And only to make it worse Seth shows no sympathy. I'm not asking him to cry for me. All i was hoping for was maybe a hug and for him to tell me it would all be alright. but no. He. Does. Nothing. T~T. Maybe hes used to having better, prettier, stronger, less fragile gfs. Unlike me. I hate myself. Theres only one reason I have left to live and thats knowing that when I turn 18 I'm GONE. Its my promise of life and love and I will NEVER give that up. And there are very few ppl who know why but June 18 2014 really means alot to me. 3 more years of this HELL. Id considered moving to my dads a few times. But id never have the nerve to start anything like that with my mom, nonetheless leave my amazing friends i have here in the state ive lived in since birth. I just wish that through it all SOMEONE might care. I understand alot of ppl have it way worse off then me,but this is the worst my lifes ever been. I guess if I want REAL happiness. I have to wait for it. Like I have been. For over 2 years.