A Sinful Cooperation

Oh my goodness it's been so long since I've actually blogged. I've changed so much. From boyfriends to mindsets, everything is different. In the time I've been gone though, I've met some amazing people. Believe it or not, a smile can make a room glow. A simple comment can make a heart beat at light-speed. He is the result of that. He is a beautiful heart of which I pursue with my greatest desires. The very thought of him...heart pounding, throat thickening, chills. He'll never know just what he is to me. He'll never see what I feel for him. He'll never want someone quite like me. However, he is not shallow-minded. There is simply a time for everything, in which I believe in with the utmost determination. Someday, I'll get my chance. It's so close I can taste it. But it's ravaging my soul like a maniac. I try and try and try to impress what can't be mine. I hope and pray that one day it'll be worth my time. I hope he appreciates it. I hope he knows. I hope he knows this heart beats for him harder than anyone before. (That was an extremely cheesy line..forgive me.) Despite the pain of waiting, its an extraordinary rush. He walks in a room, I blush. He sends me a message, I blush. I seriously think I'm going to have heart problems if it continues like this. Well, I hope he sees this and knows what he actually is to me. Although, I'm sure he already knows what he is to me. He just knows I'll wait like a good girl. (pure douchebaggery.) He knows he can control me. He knows I'd do anything for him. All in all, He knows his Aura never leaves him.


This is the Hidden Reality.
~.*Moonlightshadows12.*~

10 Things People Need To Improve On

10 Things People Need To Improve on:

10. Hygiene- Dude I DON'T want your odor wafting through my airspace..KAY?

9. Paranoia- (slightly guilty of this myself) You are the last bus to leave. Stop thinking you're going to miss it.

8. Exaggeration- So a guy broke up with you, you will LIVE! "But but hes dating.." SHUT UP! Nothing sickens me more than people getting all depressed over a relationship.

7. Common Sense- Yes, there is a difference between the Chinese and the Japanese.

6. Music- I understand we have free expression, but face it, Souldja Boy doesn't even fall into a genre.

5. Ignorance- Nobody cares if Bob isn't a Christian but you, face the fact that not everybody wants to be part of your religion and don't constantly be handing them bible tracts them if they choose not to.

4. Political Ideas- If some of the people I know became president I'm pretty sure I'd probably end up tied to a chair at the bottom of the ocean.

3. Hobbies- THATS HIDEOUS!....just...just STOP IT!

2. Arrogance- You aren't perfect my dear, now get your nose out of the clouds before my plane hits it.

1. Defiance- The cat is dead. "NO ITS NOT!" Something killed the cat. "NO ITS STILL ALIVE!" ...heh heh heh...no.

This Is The Hidden Reality
~*MoonlightShadows12*~

Does Depression Really Hurt?

Alright..to make blogger work on my iPhone I have to type it in a note and copy/paste..its very awkward but im trying to make it work to keep it updated. So anyway, you all know my position because of the previous post. Well I was recently told that i get over relationships to quickly in the first place. In my opinion this could be a good thing. I believe in anything but depression. I believe sadness naturally occurs but I don't believe it naturally drags on for long periods of time unless it was a truly life changing experience. In today's generation teenagers such as some friends and enemies of mine use the so called emotion simply to gain attention. Personally, I think using depression as an excuse to get compliments and sympathy would make anyone look like the smaller person in this picture; the person who is too shallow to be happy with themself. Teenagers also tend to use the excuse to get prescription drugs and other things that could drastically impact a young person's life. What happened to finding beauty instead of pain? Depression in cases such as Edgar Allan Poe could've truly been diagnosed seriously in our day and age, but the world's idea of depression now is just a lousy excuse, but tell me followers, whats your opinion? Comment below.

This Is The Hidden Reality
~*MoonlightShadows12*~

New Beginnings

Hello world, I suppose it seems like I only blog when my relationship changes, but honestly I haven't had a chance to. The teacher for this class decided she likes to shut off the internet to torture us..so..anyway..My relationship status DID change. I've met someone completely different. Someone I never thought I'd fall for. My heart is fluttering like no other. I suppose you're wondering just who that is. Well his name is Josh, he recently dated my so called best friend who is currently mad at the both of us for even associating in any manner of being closer than friends. The stupidity of it all is the fact that she is simply jealous. I also got the part in a band that she wanted and so she thinks I get everything I want. WRONG. VERRRRY WRONG. If I had everything I wanted I'd be famous right now using my voice for something that matters...like doing concerts for kids with cancer or something..idk e.e. Anyway, shes guna have to get over it because we actually are happy together. Also, I've seem to become friends with whom was once my enemy, Elizabeth. Turns out she isn't as terrible as she wants people to believe, she simply doesn't want to be hurt. That I can respect. Something my mother actually said that made sense. "Friends come and go" Well, I guess thats true, but who the HELL am I going to talk to at TI now?...er..well I guess I'll go on living as best I can and try to fix things...Happy Born This Day everyone.

This Is The Hidden Reality
~*MoonlightShadows12*~

My New Love

HEEEYYY PEOPLEEE!!! So so so super sorry I haven't been able to blog lately, busy life, you know how it goes...but anyhoo!! Since Seth dumped me, I found someone way better. His names Cody X3. Hes like...totally frikkin amazing in every way!! we've been going out now for almost a month and i feel so in love. I hope we stay together a rly rly long time ^//^. Call me Shinderera! (Cinderella) He treats me like such a princess ^//^..I rly don't deserve it all..hes just so wonderful..I can't even describe all that he means to me...I want to cry from happiness...Its such a beautiful feeling..what more can I say? I haven't felt like this for real since...wow...a really long time. I've never felt more secure with a person. Hes so sweet and kind and just perfect...I wish he was here right now...unfortunately he couldn't come to school today..oh well..It rly is a boring day at school without him though. He makes my day so much better just being here...to me he makes school feel like so much more than books and paper..hes the only reason I rly enjoy coming anymore..Its been such a long time since thats mattered to me at all. Honestly I didn't know I could look forward to school...until I met him 0.0. I know when he reads this he'll probably tell me how sweet it is and hug me like..alot XP. So baby when you read this, just know I Love You!

This Is The Hidden Reality
~*Moonlightshadows12*~

I only have a few minutes...and I'm sorry readers...but Seth broke up with me. And it wasnt my fault. And the sad part is the guy who caused it all isnt talking to me but instead hes just gone on being friends with Seth. And did I mention he already has a new gf?! The thing I hate is thats shes actually really really pretty...unlike me. And im sure he loves that. So as for now Im a floater. Maybe ill have that one real special guy someday...yea...someday..I know hes out there. I'm near over Seth but I just need the assurance that this whole thing isn't just going to ruin my high school life completely. Suppose we were happy...one mistake and its all over. I don't want a guy like that. I want a guy that actually can forgive and forget. gtg readers. sorry

Waiting

Ok I have a little less than 10 minutes so i need to make this quick. Currently, my life sucks. I have no phone, computer, or even privacy in my own home. Its partially my fault but mostly my mothers paranoia. I can't stand it. And only to make it worse Seth shows no sympathy. I'm not asking him to cry for me. All i was hoping for was maybe a hug and for him to tell me it would all be alright. but no. He. Does. Nothing. T~T. Maybe hes used to having better, prettier, stronger, less fragile gfs. Unlike me. I hate myself. Theres only one reason I have left to live and thats knowing that when I turn 18 I'm GONE. Its my promise of life and love and I will NEVER give that up. And there are very few ppl who know why but June 18 2014 really means alot to me. 3 more years of this HELL. Id considered moving to my dads a few times. But id never have the nerve to start anything like that with my mom, nonetheless leave my amazing friends i have here in the state ive lived in since birth. I just wish that through it all SOMEONE might care. I understand alot of ppl have it way worse off then me,but this is the worst my lifes ever been. I guess if I want REAL happiness. I have to wait for it. Like I have been. For over 2 years.